Monday, April 7, 2008

Hitting the wall / not the great wall

This Friday we were both off as it was a public holiday, (tomb sweeping day). It was very nice to have a break from work and to enjoy at least two days of rest this week. Actually this was probably one of the first time that we could switch our brains off from work and think of something else. Unfortunately we quickly realised that all this thinking was not a good thing. When you really think about it : We are far away from our love ones, we work so hard every day and we get paid close to nothing just to mention a few….

This is probably the first time it really hit us….What are we doing here, is this all worth it or no??? After spending already so much time away from home, is another year away a good thing to go through! Funny enough this opening period does not give us a lot of time and in a way I am really thankful that I have no family or even a social life as I would have no time to spend time on it. But then again not every day is easy and it would make such a difference to have someone around. Well the problem is that is not possible, which brings us to think even more. Some days you wish you could just quit everything and get on to the next plane and get a nice and well paid job home working 9 till 5.

I always knew that coming to work in China would be difficult and challenging for me. But I never realised it would be like this. This weekend was like a huge slap across the face…What I am living now is probably 1000 times harder then what I expected. This is the toughest and most challenging experience I have gone through in my life and it is not easy to put up with it every day or even to write about it….

Life is not always easy as dilemmas always play tricks with your mind….What is best, what should we do? Well I guess there is no correct answer to these questions…and that is the problem or the beauty of life depending how you look at it.

Well anyway it was quite a depressing weekend for both of us…but now we are back in the game living up the challenge every day…So now you all know that we are really missing everyone especially in these hard times.

Thanks for your continues support

Cheers

Zack